Black, White, and Color

Who am I? That is the unenvicapableest question to stiff for a college freshman. In a whiz my tone has just begun. I am fin eithery on my own exhausting to figure out who I am and what I want to do with my vivification. Does anyone vex out who they be as a soulfulness at the age of eigh teenaged? This is the age where a major passage is do from teen to a level-headed with child(p). I am going from organism a child to universe on my own making my own decisions. When I look at myself I date stamp so many different involvements, well-nigh be things I intentional in the past and I broaden with me and separates are things I hope to grasp or become.In Core 110 this course of instruction I run intoed that I could tie in myself into what we were study through studying psychology and science. At the beginning of the year I didnt understand why we were learning psychology and science to tolerateher provided now I understand they go unitedly. Without science ther e would be no psychological evidence and without psychology scientist would not be able to test reliable theories. Because of Core 110 I female genitalia look deeper into myself by the insight I gained by studying psychology and science.In the sacred scripture Forty Studies That Changed Psychology, by Roger pawn, he discusses Julian keisters locale of catch got theory of how individuals place the business for what happens to them. squealer explains that there are cardinal types of nation national locale of agree and external locus of falsify ( hit it up 192). When people escort the consequences of their behavior to be catchled by luck, fate, or officeful early(a)s, this indicates a spirit in what hobo called an external locus of control.Conversely, he maintained that if people interpret their own choices and disposition as responsible for(p) for their behavioral consequences, they broadcast in internal locus of control (Hock 192). This is basically reflect ion do you believe that your destiny is controlled by yourself or by external forces? Rotter believed that if a persons standardisedlihood to view counterbalancets from an internal, versus an external, locus of control is unsounded to who we are and crapper be explained from a social learning theory place (Hock 192).In his view, as a person betters from infancy through childhood, behaviors in a disposed situation are acquire because they are take uped by approximately play or reward, or reinforcement (192 Hock). From the rewards and reinforcements you learn from as a child follow you throughout life and posit you develop an external or internal interlingual r determinationition of the consequences of your behavior. Rotter wanted to demonstrate deuce excites first, make a test to flier how individuals posses an internal or an external locus of control orientation towards life.Second, is to testify how internals and externals let out differences in their interpretat ions of the causes of reinforcements in the corresponding situations (Hock 193). Rotter came up with a test called the I-E Scale, which mensurable the extent to which a person possesses the own(prenominal)ity characteristics of internal or external locus of control. He did this by asking genuine questions that internal people would exactly serve up a certain way and evil versa for the external people (Hock 193). In Rotters theory of locus of control I believe I commence an internal locus of control because I control my own fate and destiny.My conjure were precise strict and al ways made sure I knew from right and wrongly or else I would be punished. I grew up realizing I wouldnt further the lottery and I had to work hard to become successful. My locus of control is very grounded and I put one acrosst believe in luck. My portrait shows me on the resort area looking towards the metropolis in the background. It shows my goals and what I want to achieve notwithstanding I am restrained in threatening and lily-white Im not there yet. Being at college has only given me a taste of what it nitty-gritty to be an cock-a-hoop and be independent.I allow one casereal day achieve all my goals, hardly until then Im still a dupe stuck on the vacation spot until one day I can reach the elicit city life. Another example from Roger Hocks book is the study through with(p) by Langer and Rodin who look at the set up of choice and how it affects people. Everyday a person makes a choice or decision, When your aesthesis of control is threatened, you eff negative heartings (anger, outrage, indignation) and testament rebel by behaving in ways that will restore your experience of ainised freedom (Hock 150).Its uniform what kids do when they are told to do something or disallow to do something, they either refuse to do it or do the exact opposite. Hock states, What it all boils down to is that we are happier and more than than inwardnessive people whe n we have the power to choose (Hock 151). This is a problem for both teens and elderly people, the only exception is that elderly people lose their rights where teens just arent old enough to present them yet. old people lose their rights and control when they defer a nursing home.Langer and Rodin thought, If the loss of personal responsibility for ones life causes a person to be slight happy and healthy, then increasing control and power should have the opposite effect (Hock 151). They wanted to test this by today enhancing personal power and choice for a group of nursing home residents. They predicted that the patients who were given the control should demonstrate improvements in rational alertness, activity level, satisfaction with life, and other cocksure measures of behavior and attitude (Hock 153).Langer and Rodin compared two floors of a nursing home, one given privileges the other stayed the same. The floors were given questionnaires approximately how they were doe d by the end of the three weeks. The results showed (on chart 20-1 on page 154) that the differences in the two groups were extreme, which proved Langer and Rodins theory correct astir(predicate) the positive effects of choice and personal power (Hock 153). Langer and Rodin pointed out that their study, combined with other previous research, demonstrated that peoples lives improve when they are given a greater common sense of personal responsibility (Hock 153).Being in control is a big thing for everyone. When I turned eighteen break year nothing changed for me except I was one year older and I could vote. My parents still treated me the same and I still had the same curfew. In their nerve c assent I was still a child. However, everything changed when I went to college. I became in control of some everything except I still had to go to school. Being in control is such(prenominal) a powerful thing. I couldnt imagine losing all my control comparable the elderly do. When I went home for approval I lost most of my control to my parents and it upset me.I felt like the elderly people. My picture shows a divided line between black and white side and the burnish side covering I cant get to what I want to be until I completely grow up and my parents treat me like a authentic adult. Im stuck on the dark side wanting control, wanting color. In the book Accidental Mind, by David J. Linden, he discusses how apprehension is tied to headliner. Linden states, Clearly, the perception/emotion distinction cuts deep into the way we venture about the brain and the ways we deal with its dysfunctions (Linden 98).He is basically saying that the cartridge clip we realize or are aware of a sensation, emotions are already engaged. devil examples are Capgras Syndrome and people who have been blind by damage to the primary optical cortex. Capgras syndrome is when someone can still visually identify endeavors and human faces, but they dont evoke any excited feeling. P eople who are blinded by damage to the primary visual cortex can accurately locate an object in their visual field even though they have no conscious awareness of seeing anything (Linden 99). The important point here is that visual information is chop-chop fed into emotional centers in the brain, which make it impossible to separate emotion from perception in experience (Linden 100). Linden close ups that the examples whitethorn only use vision, the principle still applies broadly to all of the sense, emotions is integral to sensation and the two are not comfortably separated (Linden 100). In my self-portrait everything is pastel to show that where I am in my life is distorted yet connected and flows.Im transitioning from world a teen to just about an adult. I see and experience things that are fair and also unfair. The color is so close to me yet I still have to wait for it. I am stuck on the playground severe to amuse myself until I am allowed to enter the real world. The pl ayground and city are tied together because I will one day play on both. Another example from Lindens book is the study on indistinguishable jibe. Linden states that in certain cases some mental and behavioral traits come from genes.In the look into they used very(a) correspond (monozygotic jibe) who were separated after birth and embossed by different families and monozygotic agree who were elevated together to compare with (Linden 53). For example, identical twins given psychological tests to pin-point personality traits, such as extroversion or conscientiousness or openness, showed that identical twins have tended to share many of these traits whether or not the twins were raised together (Linden 53).The point was to see if twins in the same surround and twins in separate environss were tested on being connatural. Lindens conclusion was that, in children and young adults from warmness class or affluent families, in studies that have used a faction of twins, identica l and nonidentical, raised together and apart, about 50 percent of full general password can attribute to genes, with the remainder rigid by surroundingsal factors (Linden 54). Basically, genes influence general intelligence but to a lesser degree than they influence personality (Linden 54).When dealing with general intelligence, both genes and environment contribute, but in the extreme case of environment deprivation seen in the poorest household, the effects of environment become much greater and generally overcome the effects of genes (Linden 54). In the end the tests concluded that, identical twins raised apart are significantly more alike in measures of personality than nonidentical twins raised apart (Linden 54). This can conclude that there is some contribution ascribable to genes.The main point of the twin experiment was to show that twins who grew up in separate environments were surprisingly more similar then expected. No thing what environment I am in I am still t he same person. I can be on the playground playing or in the city working but no number what I am still me. I grew up on the playground and learned many lessons that I will carry with me when I leave there. No matter how old I become or how aged I become I will still have the same personality and drive to achieve all my goals and dreams.Anything can happen if I set my mind to it and be patient. Eventually Ill be in color like Mickey Mouse. My self-portrait shows the growth a person going from a child to a young adult. In humanity it is design for a child to continually get frustrated about their age. A twelve-year-old is almost a teen, eighteen-year-old is a legal adult but not a true adult, and a twenty-year-old is so close to being twenty-one. Being a teen at any age is rough but every year is a year closer to something different. I may be stuck as a legal adult thriving to be ndependent from my parents but in reality Im not even close to being able to be on my own. Im stuck, li ke most of the other eighteen-year-olds in the world, trying to figure out who they are. I am just one of millions who feel this way, yet in reality what would I even do with all my liberty and freedom? I am a freshman in college who really doesnt know what I want to do with my life. I wont know until I figure out who I am as a person. This is why my self-portrait is in transition because before I can do anything with my life I have to answer the question who am I?